My inside fell apart in silence I just threw a smiling cloth on the violence Painted laughs over cracks and bruises just to make it look like I’m fine with it Thinking back always feels so golden but there’s a shadow where the light was stolen Maybe nostalgia only glows ‘cause something darker’s standing close I used to walk with my eyes on the ground now I finally see what’s around Still I swear someone’s behind breathing quiet, staying out of sight When footsteps pass me on the street my whole spine skips a beat If anyone gets close to me, I bleed before we even meet Why do I live in worry? These waves keep chasing me Clear my head, clean slate peace comes quietly Butterflies in my stomach When I have to constantly prove that I’m still worth it Different kinds of love who can give them free rein without indulging themselves? All I wanted was to be genuine And whatever shape I could manage, yeah Waves, waves, waves Waves of memories How are you gonna pull me back to the ground ...